My name is Gizem, I am married and Turkish. We live in Istanbul. Except for the first few years of my marriage, I considered myself a woman for a long time. Personally, I'm like an extremely shy, helpless, and pathetic girl. I'm tired of playing the role of a man towards my wife, both at home and in bed. My wife, Serpil, and I haven't had a quality sexual relationship for a long time; I've never felt like a man, and for months, almost a year, I've been neglecting my wife. I'm very happy in the secret woman's world I've created for myself, but I know my wife is very uncomfortable with this situation. We're constantly arguing; she loudly and insultingly tells me that I'm not a man. I have a weaker, more timid personality than a woman, and I submit to everyone. Concepts of honor and dignity mean little to me. Revealing myself and my partner is very exciting. Except for the early years of my marriage, I had regular, but not very frequent, same-sex relationships, and now I have a female friend who is like me, and we have extremely unusual, secret woman-to-woman relationships.

I love showcasing myself as a woman. I'm much happier when I'm in women's clothes. It makes me even happier that my wife, even though she doesn't want me, is starting to accept my feminine side more than my masculine side. I've been feeling this more lately. My wife is finally trying to come to terms with me. I hope she leaves me alone with my female identity, and I'm sure I'll serve her much better as a woman. Being her plaything, being her female lover, is my biggest dream. I want to experience everything extraordinary as two lesbian friends. I can't be a man anymore. I just don't feel like acting like a man.

I'm married, bisexual, and I enjoy dressing like a woman, wearing makeup, being humiliated, and exposing myself and my wife. Being a useless man makes me happier.