Chimerach

Perhaps the quote by Carl Gustav Jung describes me best:
"Wenn ein Mensch mehr weiß als andere, wird er einsam."
(When a person knows more than others, he becomes lonely.)

I am not claiming that I know more than others. I only know that the more experience and context I have gained, the harder it is for me to be carefree, spontaneous, and easily fascinated when it comes to women.

I am no longer entirely young, but not old either. Morning erections still work, which at my age is not entirely negligible information. :)

Few people genuinely surprise me these days. Not because I consider all women the same, but because certain patterns repeat very quickly: the need for attention, reassurance, admiration, drama, or validation of one's own worth. I can observe them, sometimes even understand them, but on their own they no longer excite me much.

The usual game of approaching and withdrawing, jealousy, or conflicts manufactured out of boredom can be a short-term diversion for me. In the long run, however, they lead nowhere. I am not looking for a woman whose appeal rests on her inability to manage her own emotions.

I am attracted to different personalities: intelligent, not entirely conventional, psychologically layered, and experienced enough to know their lighter and darker sides. Women who do not pretend their differences away but are able to handle them consciously. They can be intense, sharp, or difficult to read, but they should not be chaotic.

The most interesting woman for me is one who does not constantly need to reassure herself of her own worth, can say what she wants, and understands the difference between intensity and destruction. She can enter an interaction with open eyes, negotiate the rules, and then either respect them or consciously challenge them.

I am not looking for an emotionally unstable partner or endless relationship therapy. I am looking for a longer-term, clearly defined interaction between two adults who know what they are doing — and can still manage to surprise each other.