AS A FEMBOY, I

I'm sure some of us, myself included, struggle to understand who or what we are in terms of sexual identity. I can almost hear some of you saying, "Yes, you're right, baby."

I think I've found a kind of self-definition:
I'm a Femboy, actually that's a definition I used to describe myself during my high school and college years. I'm married now, but I never see myself as a woman's husband.

The term "femboy" really suits me; it can be defined as:
"A young boy who blurs the line between boy and girl, meaning not exactly like a boy but not exactly like a girl either, but rather exhibiting feminine behaviors and actions in his daily life." That's exactly who I am. Although it can be confused with "cross-dressing," it usually refers to very young boys or adolescent boys. I can say that my childhood, from elementary school to middle school and high school, was exactly like that. I had more female friends than male friends, and playing with girls was much more appealing to me. I never hung out with male friends; although I rarely played some boy games with them, I didn't see myself as like them, I was more like my female friends. When I was home alone, I would dress in my sister's clothes and take great pleasure in dressing up with my mother's makeup. When I remember those years, I would watch my sister with admiration and wish I could be a girl like her.
Even now, my sister is my only idol in this life. I admire my sister and love her very much. When I'm alone, I imagine my sister in all my sexual fantasies.

The term "femboy" is often used to describe gay men who dress like girls, but some of us can of course be heterosexual as well; this can be described as a matter of preference and passion.

As you know, there are many types of trans people. We know transsexuals who are attracted to both men and women and who are eager to protect their penises. Personally, I prefer them more. A male organ, provided it's clean and not too large or thick, has always been my first choice. I really love them. Even now, I can say they are far more attractive than women or men.
There are trans girls born in male bodies, and these individuals often see the world from a girl's perspective. Some hate their penises and have them surgically removed, while others ignore their organs and don't care at all. As I said, it varies from person to person. Their sexual preferences can be either way, and I think it's perfectly natural.

And then there are the ladyboys, who are very common in Asia, although I haven't had the chance to go yet. Cute Asian girls with small penises. I don't think I'd be wrong to say that a third of Thailand consists of ladyboys. I really love them. If it were possible, I would spend the rest of my life with a Thai trans woman. I'm obsessed with their tiny penises, their smooth skin, and their petite bodies.

Men who are described as cross-dressing are generally men who are greatly aroused by women's clothing. Like me, I can say that being in women's clothing has given me great pleasure and a mysterious thrill from my elementary school years to the present day. The moment I am in those women's clothes, it's as if my inner feminine spirit, impatient to be revealed, becomes one with my physical body, making me feel like a woman. Many cross-dressers are obedient and very sweet, well-behaved gentlemen.
There are also transvestites, and men who dress like women but like and appreciate the female lifestyle.

Of course, I can only speak for myself, as I know my place. I call myself a femboy because some of my interests are similar to those of transgender individuals, some are not, but even though I love my small, soft, and useless penis, I've been keeping it caged for about a year; I don't even feel like touching it.

Due to my wife's intense pressure, I'm forced to have sex with her against my will at long intervals.
Aside from that, I can say I love my small penis; sometimes I play with it like a toy, sometimes I tie it tightly with a string for a long time, and it even bruises. Even though it hurts, sometimes I tie my penis as if I want her to feel the pain, and sometimes I crush it with my high heels. At that moment, I realize my helplessness and vulnerability. Even though it really hurts, I enjoy it.
But generally, I keep my penis in a plastic cage. I enjoy having it constantly locked up in my daily life, and I've gotten used to it; I don't feel any discomfort. I recommend this to all my friends who feel like helpless and insecure mama's boys.
On my special business trips, I love displaying both my penis and my body; seeing the astonishment of others and realizing how helpless and insecure I am is an indescribable thrill.
In short, I love exposing myself. In recent years, uploading all the photos I secretly took of my wife to certain websites, getting comments, and then masturbating gives me more pleasure than having sex with her.

In real life, I'm a shy girl with a cute penis, I'm still shy in front of the camera, but I like to show it off when I get aroused.

Actually, there's a man inside me too. Not like a split personality, just a way of thinking. But my body is really feminine. I have very few masculine features. I have almost no body hair. My legs are slender and long, and my hips are much fuller than a man's. My wife likes my body; sometimes she says she's more beautiful in her own body and tells me I'm like a woman. She probably thinks she's insulting me, but she doesn't know it's a great honor for me.

I have no hair on my chest, armpits, or arms, and very little in my groin area. My skin is smooth and soft. My breasts are not at all masculine, but they are too small to be called feminine. I usually buy my bras in size 75A.
Spending time in a women's lingerie store is wonderful; touching those satin bras and sometimes trying them on in the fitting room makes me so happy. When choosing a bra, I usually prefer those with a little padding; they make my breasts look bigger, which is much nicer, of course, that's just my opinion, but I recommend these kinds of bras to all my friends who think the same way.
My feet are very well-cared for, soft, and size 41-42, but I generally prefer open-toed, high-heeled shoes because they're more comfortable. Stiletto-style high heels, especially black ones with red or white soles, look incredibly aesthetic; I feel like a total whore at that moment.

When I'm sexually aroused, my greatest passion is taking the fluids that come from the tip of my penis with my fingers and then sucking on my finger while imagining it's a man's penis.
It might sound strange to many of you, but I've been drinking my own sperm for a long time. For over two years, although rarely, I've developed the habit of ejaculating into my palms, feet, or shoes after masturbating. Once, I ejaculated into a coffee cup and then drank it. I've also had experiences drinking sperm with a married friend in Istanbul, whom I've known for a long time and who, like me, is extremely feminine and completely passive in his sexual life. My advice to friends who want to try this but are hesitant is to taste your own sperm first; believe me, it will be much easier afterwards. Especially if you have a partner like mine, I want you to know that you can research it; remember that sperm has a very high nutritional value; you definitely won't regret it.

I will share the rest in my next post; I hope you read and enjoy it. I send my warmest greetings to everyone. Take good care of yourselves and your bodies.