My name is Gizem, I am married and I am Turkish. We live in Istanbul. Except for the first years of my marriage, I saw myself as a woman for a long time. As a personality, I am extremely shy, helpless and like a poor child. I am so tired of playing the male role towards my wife, both in our home life and in bed. I haven't had a quality sexual relationship in a long time, I've never felt like a man, and I've been neglecting my wife for months. I am very happy in the secretly feminine world that I have created for myself, but I know that my wife is very uncomfortable. I have a weaker, more cowardly personality than a woman, and I bow down to everyone. The concepts of honor and dignity don't mean much to me. It's very exciting to expose myself and my partner. Except for the first years of my marriage, I have had regular, though not very frequent, homosexual relationships, and now I have a female friend like me and we have extremely unusual secret female-female relationships with her.
We are both married, but we do not feel any masculine desire towards our wives. We have a much more enjoyable and willing sexual life together, woman to woman. If the social and moral rules were not so rigid in the country I live in, I am sure I would live much more freely with him, woman to woman, without paying attention to anyone.
I hate having an erection. Getting fucked without an erection is really fun. I have been using a penis cage for more than 10 months. He's felt like he's getting smaller since day one and I can see it. Even though this situation bothers my wife, I am happy. I hope my wife finds a suitable man for herself as soon as possible. She gets rid of her useless husband and spices up her sexual life as much as she wants.